X-file videos

As I have said previously when looking at the stills from
the X-files i felt like we could get a better interpretation when looking at
the clips I have seen. When viewing them
we can look at and analyse the body language prior to her experiencing their
fear. Not only the body language but
there facial reactions. In the videos usually
the sound goes dead then suddenly we will get a rush of sound when there
experiencing the fear which is a good technique. The body language of people is of a stunned
nature they take small steps eyes are dilated constantly looking around hands
out in front ready etc. What I have
also noticed and which came out in my questionnaire that people where scared of
the dark. During these clips and a lot
of series of the same genre use the technique of being in the dark as there is
a sense of hesitancy and being on edge. Also
there are a lot of long shots used which gives the viewer a lot to look
at. I think this is an art form in itself;
it’s just another way of expressing it.

pictures in city center

The reason why i have took these pictures is because in my
eyes I think they really stand out and
in a sense remind me of the run down factory and garage a looked at
previously. How i think it relates to
fear is that with it being a door it could represent that the fear is past that
door. I love that its an everyday location
which we pass everyday and would just glance at it not thinking at it. I like this factor and that something normal and
everyday could have more meaning to what it looks like on the outside. I love how its a white innocent looking door
which has big scaffolding surrounding it like a burden with graffiti on it
too. I love the rustic feel to it which gives
an unwelcoming feel to it. I also admire
the bulky old locks used to close the door.
As I said I like the fact that the door is leading to something else but
we don’t know what’s behind the door. To
the right of the door on the scaffolding there is red tape which has the
connotations that there is danger surrounding the place.

match stick shoot

When creating this piece once again i wanted to create a
sculpture/object which had connotations of what i would describe my fear
being. One of the main thing i feared
was being alone with my brothers if my
mum died so this is represented by the spilling of the match sticks am thinking
lots of thought and possibilities when my mams in hospital. Also the space around the match sticks gives
of an isolating affect. I also wanted it to symbolise the fact fear can spread
through everyone. The pink match sticks
and the burnt ones give of an effect of danger around this piece a bad thing is
happening. I have used wood again as it
a natural material representing my natural feeling towards my fear. With my inspiration from Mike Nelson and
Nathan Coley I think that this piece is rather successful. In the bottom left I spelt out the word fear
with charred match sticks. I wanted to
use text and locations but in a different way from the inspiration from my
artist Nathan Coley. Mike Nelson comes
in with the use of the burnt match sticks as his work is quite destructive and
has meaning to it. The spelling out of
fear is almost like fait, where ever you go you can’t escape it its always with
you and is almost like a burden. This is
what I want to achieve in my final in some form or way. Its also using a box which is revealing
something which I love.

tree log shoot

I’ve collected
various items which I wanted to represent fear.
In this piece I have considered what I wanted to symbolise my mum’s fear
with in a way which wasn’t so obvious. I
wanted to create a sculpture and not a painting as for this topic I feel that
sculpture is the better way to express myself.
As you can see I have chosen a stump from a tree. The reason for choosing
this material is that its natural and living which depicts my mum’s fear of
dying as the wood is gradually dying to.
In experiments before this piece I used text as it was an effective
method of giving hints. I have used the
obvious word ‘fear’ in my work but the one that’s spelt largely across the top ‘permanent’
was the word that my mum described her fear
in the questionnaire. I thought that
this would be effective in this piece as the tree can’t go back it’s too late
and is dying. This is what my mums afraid
of not coming back which she mentioned in her interview. I think the big slice along the front adds to
the effect of the dying tree almost like it wounded. Inside it, it looks dark and shadowy which I
also like.

How I writ the words was with a craft knife which I then carved
into the wood so they are also ‘permanent’.
Once I carved them in I then got a nib and Indian ink which I soaked
into the engraved marks and makes the text stand out more due to the colour I
choose in contrast with the oak brown wood.
I wanted to have the font quite scratchy and black so it has connotations
of death and so it looked like it has been scratched on as it gives of an
uneasy effect to it. I found the text in
this piece quite significant from the inspiration from Nathan Coley. He also places his work in various locations which
adds to the effect of his work and the words he’s used. In my work I have manipulated the material
and used its natural effect to achieve my point. When I went to take pictures of this piece I
choose the location carefully being a different place to where I found the wood
I wanted a Forrest environment. This is
so that I could achieve the effect that it’s in its natural habitat which then
symbolised my mums fear as it has grown on here and is with her where ever she goes
but looking at her we wouldn’t be able to tell this. I like the fact of revealing something or
using an everyday object that the untrained eye wouldn’t see is a good
effect. What I love about this location
is that the ground looks so natural and goes well with the wood and also the lighting
which is casted through the trees onto the floor almost like a spot light.

candy man stills

During a conversation with my girlfriend we where talking about my project and how its about fear, I started to mention the X-files and how I was analysing them which then brought her on to suggest looking at the film the candy man. I then took her advice and watched the film. I have taken stills from the movie which I think are most useful. The pictures I have taken remind me of the run down factory I visited. Its an abandoned location which looks like is was someone’s home. The floors are covered in scrap facilities which where in the home which have been destroyed and vandalised. From what i can make out it looks like from what’s left over is a toilet and bath, both looking black of the amount of dirt on them, even the tiles on the walls are discoloured . Looking at this place its. A would feel very on edge and aware of what is around me when there. Looking at this we can tell that it was an everyday home but now it has been transformed into something else which is completely different. I wanted to look at the candy man because just like the X-files it is a multi media source which I can research and analyse.

Andy Warhol, Wanted men

During
a chat with Dave after i have drawn the infamous people i have choose he said
to me that it reminded me of the work of Warhol. This is when a decided to research it once Dave
mentioned this. His work has the same
colour code and size covering just the face not the whole body.

creating my box

When making my box I used scrap MDF wood which came in big
boards what had paint on one side. I
then measured the pieces that I need out then I cut each individual plank which
was the most time consuming part. After
I did this I then sanded the edges so that it gave it a bevel so they would be
slats going through where each plank ends on the side. I then used treated 2 by 1 wood which kept
the planks of wood together which i used nails and glue to keep together. They are used as supports which kept all the
slats of wood together. I used this method for all sides. After i created the outskirt of the box I
then had the lid to complete and the bottom of the box. The lid is the same method used as the outskirt. Its the same technique that they use when
creating wooden crates for transporting stuff.
This then gives the wood structure creating the box. The box was then strengthened by the floor of
the box which was made with 1 inch thick chip board. Once i did this i then moved on creating the
lid. I used simple hinges which kept the
lid on and supported it nicely. They where splashed of paint and scratches etc
on the wood which i brought down by sanding it down with high grade sanding
paper. Once I prepped the wood i could
then go on to painting the insdie of the box black and then treating the
outside of the wood with a oak brown stain.
This gave it its authentic feel and protects the wood.

my box

The reason why I have chosen to create a box is because I
wanted an item of some sort which could represent my idea clearly but allow
leeway for my audience to gain their own perspective on my work. I wanted to have an object which had two
sides to it like a door which could almost hide or reveal something. This effect proved well in my experiments
with the medicine the medicine tubs and the match stick box. They where all boxes and held something
unrevealed. In this case I wanted the
box to represent a person. It could have been any individual but I wanted it to
represent my mum. On the outside of the
box I wanted it to look old and decaying like an ordinary box which people
wouldn’t look twice at. This is because
with every individual lies a road of experiences which they have faced and
every individual is different.
Unfortunately we can’t tell this by judging what the cover looks like on
the outside. We have to be told about
the experiences they have had, we couldn’t know anything in depth when just
looking at them. So everyone looks
normal with in a sense but has stories which differ which have to be told to
us, we couldn’t tell this by just looking at them. This is what I want to achieve with the
box. On the outside it looks like a
normal box but when you open the box it tells a totally different story.

With the box now
representing a person and the outside representing the appearance of a person
im now going to move on to the inside of the box. Everyone has a fear of some sort which was
proven in my results from my questionnaire.
This also varies from person to person but when looking at my mums fear,
hers is about dying. With her past
experiences she has had with hospitals which i explained earlier she has a phobia
of hospitals and from her near experiences with death she is scared of
dying. When looking at my mum i wouldn’t
be able to tell this by looking at her.
This is what I wanted to achieve with the box so that my audience would
be clueless when looking at the box its not until they look inside why they
gain a better insight. It’s almost like
the box is telling a story.

The story of my mum and her near death experiences she had
and ultimately her fear of dying. With
my experiments earlier in the brief I experimented with various materials one
of them being a tree trunk. This was
also to represent my mums fear. In my
final I choose to make the box out of wood because the material has important
representations to go along side it. With the wood being a living material and
the box representing my mum it symbolised natural life and living things. With the wood, it’s gradually dying which
will unfortunately happen to us all.
This is why I choose this material so it interlinked with the item I
choose to have in the box. I decided to
have a burnt log of wood which is charred black which means the wood is pretty
much dead. With the wood being black
obviously black has connotations of death which I think works well. Again this represents my mum’s fear of
death. During the interview with my mum
she described that certain smells reminded her of the experience she had in the
hospital. I covered the bottom of the box with pine tree leaves and small
sticks so it looks like the floor of the forest. It also gives of the smell of nature like
being in the forest quite a clean and pleasant smell which my audience will
experience. I wanted this to happen so it’s
like a fragment of what my mum has experienced and that it’s the same theme as
what’s in the movie. I didn’t want to
make this piece ultra obvious hence why I have chosen the route I have so that
the audience can take away there own perspective of my art.

When creating my final I could have taken other routes which
I have tried through out this project such as making something from the
inspiration of the human anatomy. I
experimented with clay and the facial expressions. I thought it worked well but wasn’t what I
wanted to achieve. I wanted something
that was less obvious and could be read into more detail. The human form has limitations to where the
mind could go and what my audience could associate with it. This is why I choose the box because the
limitations are endless. I was also
contemplating the fact of creating a large piece in the form of a gallbladder
but I decided against this as I didn’t think it would work as well and again it
was too obvious. As you can tell I have
been inspired greatly from my artist. My
favourites through this project and that have influenced me the most would be
mike nelson and Nathan Coley.

box's in the exsisiting market

When looking at boxes that are in our existing market I
decided to locate and analyse individual box’s which I liked and that had
different elements to it which I could be inspired from. When researching this I already had in mind
what I wanted to have as a design so I looked at similar ones to the idea I had
in my head so I could look at techniques.
I wanted to look at quite dated boxes which looked old and
authentic. My favourite one would be the
one that has the writing across it. I
think it works well adding the originality it has as its slowly rubbing of the
wood. I have noticed that non of these examples I have chose don’t have slats
in the wood showing the joins. I would
have liked to been able to see the slats.
I think I would like to use that effect when creating my box. These boxes are used to store different
things and have different purposes. The
one with the writing on is clearly used for transporting things as it has the
ware and tare marks of this. Other ones
look old but don’t have as much damage as some.
A think they will vary in size to store different things. This is also what I have to think about when
creating my box, the actual size of it.
Along side the material and the techniques I am going to use.

medicine tubs and other items i have found

When on my first photo shoot I found items that I thought
where interesting and useful. Already
having in mind I wanted to create something 3d for my final I collected these
objects as I thought they fitted well with my project. What I love about them is that they all have
corrosion on them and rust which I love it shows ageing very well and also a
transformation to what the object originally looked like.

My favourite piece here is the one of the tin can of a paint
bucket nature. What I love is how at one
end it’s all strangely and corroded where on the other hand on the bottom it
looks more prestigious and newer. You
can still tell it is old but you can still make out some of the original form. The top of the tin is very sharp and almost
gives of a sense of danger and fear.
What I admire about fear its an emotion which is unpleasant and has bad
connotations to it almost quite a gritty word.
Fear is like an effect which most people suffer in one way or another
which came up in my questionnaire. Everyone
is different and has different fear and is affected by them on different
levels. In a way the corrosion on these
rustic items is an effect which has happened to them over the years. These objects could almost represent people
and the effect that fear has on them.
Especially to the tin. In one way
you look at it its normal and in the other it’s totally different which can be
the same when interpreting what a person’s fear is. I modified the tin by using Indian ink on it
which sunk into the rusted metal and gave a good effect I scratched into it
with a pin first them went over with Indian ink which worked out well. A love how the black ink stands out from the
sour grey metal. Shows how fear spreads
with in us. I used wording in my pieces
due to my inspiration from Nathan Coley.

my fear

The reason why I have done this page is to explain my
experiences and express my emotions which are the fear of loosing my mum. When she was in hospital I felt alone and
that I could loose a loved one. My mum
has always supported me in what I have did I provided me with not only
confidence but materials to accomplish my goals. When my mum was in hospital I was left with
looking after my brothers, me being the oldest I had to try and show some form
of comfort to them assuring them that everything is going to be fine knowing
myself that there was a possibility that everything wouldn’t.
It was a big responsibility looking after them and all what I wanted was
my mum to be with us. The thought of
loosing my mum would make me cry it was that serious and could be considered a
miracle my mum being here today.

I made these small medicine bottles which I thought worked
well as its almost like the medicine to my fear. This could represent a cure to my fear. I’ve collected various items relating to me
and my identity which could relate to my fear.
I love the tag that was from a previous trip to the hospital where I had
a Polip removed. I think they work well
relating to me and can be used to represent my fear. When creating these experiments’ I used
Indian ink to inscribe on the bottles.
What I love is the innocent white contrasting with the scratchy black
text. The sticker on the bottle adds to
the authenticity of the bottles. During a
chat with Dave my tutor I mentioned how it reminded me of the exhibition held
at the Baltic by Damien Hirst work.

my mums fear

When looking at my mums fear which she descried in her
interview and questionnaire some of the experiences she have been nerve racking
for the both of us. One of the main
problems with her health was her gallbladder which developed stone in it which
resulted in it having to be removed at first the doctors didn’t detect this
which could have been deadly for my mum.
Looking back on the experience it was horrible and wouldn’t wish it on
anybody. Some of the things that my mum
described in where the smells that where at the hospital, the perfume she wore
she couldn’t wear it again along with the clothes she wore because she was
reminded of what she went through.
Certain sounds reminded her of what she went through which made he feel
fearful. With my brief being about fear
I wanted to look at peoples fear and my mums stood out because she’s came
through a lot. It also relates to me her
fear of dying because I would say my fear would be loosing my mum and this is
how our fears are linked together. I’ve
collected item which relate to her experiences and to her which could represent
her fear.

experements with clay

What i did with my inspiration from Alison Lambert is create
a face which was pulling a certain facial expression out of clay. I wanted to make it out of clay because its
3d and I wanted to work towards something that is 3d which is an object which
can be viewed at all angles. I choose
the facial expression of shock like someone was experiencing fear. I haven’t really practiced with clay but I
thought that it was a good source of experimentation and allowed to me to mess
around with materials. This helped me decide
which material I wanted to do as a final.
I loved creating the human form but I thought it was too obvious and
wanted something with more depth hence why I choose against having a final
based on the human form.

facial expressions from the X-files

idecided to use the X-files as asource of research to analyse how facial reactions are when happening in the moment. I took stills from my TV. I think it’s interesting how the face reacts
to fear. In the picture of ‘Skully’ (the women) you can see how her eye brows are raised her eyes are dilated and her mouth is open, this is through shock and also experiencing fear. You can also see the same reaction from theguy to how the natural response is. Although this isn’t real, and is manipulated it still is a good reference.